"During my few weeks of class I learned how the abortion Ihad many years ago was still holding me in bondage. Spiritual bondage of un-forgiveness for myself and others. Spiritual nbondage due to not acknowledging my unborn child as a gift from God with life within him. Bondage that led to many years of self-destructive behavior. I was taught from medical staff, friends, and family that it was normal to have an abortion. Mind you I was in my 2nd trimester at 17 years old, the medical staff told me my baby was only a mass of tissue. Years later in medical school I learned I was decieved, my baby had a heart, nails, hands, feet, face, and I killed him. I was devistated for years, all I wanted to do was forget anddie. I overheard my mother tell someone that abortion was a sin. I din't understand it was due to the fact it was murder. When I learned that I had committed a grievous sin against God, I felt as if I deserved every punishment on this earth. I was so hurt and knew for sure that God will punish me for eternity.
"Until God placed the mentors, material presented in class, and the word of God the Bible and taught me to grieve my unborn baby. To name him Michael, and put him to rest in the arms of God. I learned that God forgives me. That God is compassionate and understanding, God loved me and Michael. That I was not damned for life. That my baby was resting in God's arms waiting for me. I cried, I learned, and I received God's forgiveness. I also learned to forgive others as well as myself.
"Today, I can honestly say I am free from that lie and bondage. I feel different; I feel a relief in my heart and soul. I feel God's love consume me. I am so grateful to let that burden go.
"I truly and wholeheartedly recommend this class to anyone who has had an abortion or knows someone who has." - MC
“Forgiving myself has been more challenging than forgiving others. Through conversations with women of like faith in a gracious God and forgiving Savior, my grief and guilt are significantly better. Honoring the child through acknowledgement and self-forgiveness is extremely healing.” - Anonymous
“Calling them hard times, would not do justice. Married, an 11 moth old, an abusive husband, who I’d met in the Navy, and a baby on the way. No family. I was adopted by a pedophile after my Dad died. Dad had been in the Navy and Air Force. So, there was no family to help. I was TERRIFIED. Alone, in NY, coldest, mean spirited state I’ve lived in. Being a military brat, and Veteran, relocating was the constant. planned parenthood, lying, said 'it’s just a mass of tissue,' as she held out her fist as to show 'nothingness,' I actually pictured a clump of cells, fist shape form. It would be 13 years before I learned the truth.
"After recommitting my life to Christ, I joined the Fight For Life. 1994. Watching a video of an abortion, I saw what really happens, a heartbeat being stopped. Self hatred ensued. Shame. Guilt. Depression, especially on March 17. Anniversary of the abortion. I was already guilt ridden. I literally was bawling during the abortion. I refuse to call it the 'procedure.' Just didn’t know how I’d keep 2 babies safe.
"But then one day, 26 years later. A class. Where people didn’t judge. YESHUA (Jesus) was lifted up. And I could experience healing. As I worked through the forgiveness of all those that encouraged my abortion, those that didn’t help, those that turned their back on my drunkard abusive husband. Family and friends. And finally, forgiving myself for not leaving him and keeping my baby. For not trusting G-d, most of all. Forgive Margaret Sanger for planned parenthood, which is an oxymoron in itself. Because they killed my parenthood baby. One day, Abba Father will wipe away all the tears cried over this. But until then, I’ll be anticipating the day, because of YESHUA, I’ll see my baby. ” - DH